IT"S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!


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Happy 34th BIRTHDAY!!!! FUCK!!! How did I get this old!?!?!?!

First and foremost….Happy Birthday to my twinnie…Rossie!! This is going to be our best year yet. You’re getting married to your person and I am so excited to be right by your side.

Birthdays always tend to be my biggest reflection day of the year. I always think about what I have accomplished. Have I hit the goals that I made last year? Am I where I expected to be by now? [You know..comparing yourself to others your age or younger. This one is the fucking worst!!! Don’t do this!!!] 

This year I decided my word of the year would be EVOLVE. Well…that is what I am going to do this year. I am focusing on evolving. This year…I am asking different questions. Am I living in the moment? Am I making my future self proud? Am I present with my friends and family?

(photo credit: Adam Bouska)


This year I decided my word of the year would be EVOLVE. Well…that is what I am going to do this year. I am focusing on evolving. This year…I am asking different questions. Am I living in the moment? Am I making my future self proud? Am I present with my friend’s and family?
This is the first year in as long as I can remember that I’m not down and out about my birthday. I have that feeling of defeat or not being successful. For the first time...I am super proud of what I accomplished last year. 






I grew so much as a person. I am no longer being held back by the traumatic relationship I escaped. I no longer feel like a failure. I know that I overcame a shit ton of stuff that was holding me back...mentally. 

I finally feel like I am the person I am supposed to be and that I’m on the path/journey I am destined to take. I don’t feel the urge to desperately find a significant other. The inner clock isn’t ticking as loud. I don’t feel sorry for myself. I used to feel so horrible about climbing in age and not being in a committed relationship. 





Stupid fucking society norms!!! If you know me...you know I don’t like to follow what others are doing. I (walk) dance to the own beat of my drum. [Insight into my brain...it’s a constant flow of Disney and Broadway showtunes and A LOT of freaking glitter.]

I share all this to show you that those thoughts and insecurities you’re feeling...yeah the ones you don’t want to share...it’s real...it’s normal and you can get past them!! You truly CAN change your internal monologue from a negative/fearful/self doubting space...to a BADASS/FEARLESS/EMPOWERED/POSITIVE mindset. 

I am proof that it can happen. For my birthday...I ask that you do something today that puts a smile on someone else’s face! A random act of kindness. When you’re done...go grab a glass a wine and celebrate National Wine Day. 

I told you today was gonna be fucking awesome!!

Until next time...

XOXO,

Dev


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